My dog ate a packing peanut that was on a desk in my home, but we were both in a separate part of the house.
It was only when I was back at the desk later that I noticed the peanut and put it away, but by then it was too late. I called the vet’s surgery and they called animal control, but it was too late.
The peanut was destroyed.
It would be easy to write this off as a bad accident. I’m sure there are far worse things that happen than a peanut being swallowed. But when it happens to you, it’s not. It’s awful. It’s just… awful.
I’ve had an emotional week. I felt pretty positive about my job in general, but I’m struggling with my performance and my performance reviews in particular. I’m trying to come to terms with some changes to my role and I’m also coming to terms with how the fact that I’m a woman has affected my performance review. I’m also trying to work out if I can give a good performance review. I’m struggling with all of these things and I’m scared about how my performance review is going to go.
On the day of the performance review, I’m going to have a meeting with my boss and HR. I want to be on good terms with both of them, so I’m trying to come to a decision as to what I want to do with this meeting. My boss has been trying to make it clear that she isn’t agnst me, but at the same time, she doesn’t want to lose my services, so she has been trying to make it clear that I’m important to her. And my HR department is also trying to make it clear that I’m valued, but they’re also trying to make it clear that they’re not happy with my performance and that they are going to cut my hours. They’ve given me the first half of my pay-cut, and they told me that if I don’t get my performance up, they’re going to do the full pay-cut. It’s not just a performance review. It’s more of a “performance or you’re out” review. I’m trying to work out if I can get the HR department to leave me alone or if I should call HR.
On the day of my performance review, I was supposed to have a presentation on our online booking system. We didn’t have one prepared because we’ve been having a crisis of some sorts with the online booking system. It’s a major system that runs our entire operation, so it’s very important. It’s also very complex. So we couldn’t work out what the problem was, but we weren’t getting calls for support. The calls for support that we did get were all being answered by another department. I think I know why now. So we didn’t have time to do a presentation, but we did have time to do the presentation. It was a good presentation, and it was well received.
But I wasn’t happy. The performance review was in a month’s time and we had three weeks to make sure we had a good presentation to show my boss, which we didn’t. I was disappointed that I wasn’t able to give her a good presentation, and I was very upset that we hadn’t been given the presentation material in advance so that I could practice with the slide-deck and so that we could make some improvements.
I felt upset because my performance review was coming up. I felt upset because I wasn’t allowed to do a good performance review for my boss. I felt upset because I’m being asked to give up some of my pay for a few weeks without being given any of the material that I need to prepare. And I also felt upset because I’m not sure how to react to the situation.
I felt upset that I had to tell my boss that I’m not sure what I’m going to do about my performance review.
I feel upset because I’m getting a pay-cut.
I’m upset because I’m worried that I’m going to get in trouble because I’m not performing.
I’m upset because I’m concerned about how I’m going to react to my performance review.
And I’m very upset that I’m even having this performance review because it’s not good for women to be having performance reviews, especially if they’re women with children. I also feel upset because we’re a really good company. We pay the people well, and we do a lot of work that’s really valuable. So to have a performance review when I’m having my first child… is a bit scary. I’m worried about how my performance review will affect my employment, and how it will affect my child. I’m worried about how it will affect my relationship with my boss. And I’m really worried about what will happen with the rest of the company if I get in trouble.
I’m upset because I feel that I can’t tell